That’s always a big dilemma.

I’ve been struggling with this for a few years, even prior to my diagnosis. I know I’ve written a bit about that before, but today I was TRIUMPHANT!

I woke up , my usual 3 am-ish time, made a coffee and started packing. Before I knew it I had 6 boxes packed, my kitchen cupboards empty (except what I will need for the weeks to come), Labeled boxes and organized a whole pile of other things.

THAT is what I was supposed to be doing!

For me, this is a complete WIN! Having your days filled with good intent and then finding, hours later……like when you crawl into bed……….you completely missed doing all the things you had set out to do in your day. Today was not like that. Feelin’ good.

Living with this disease can be so absolutely frustrating. You set out to do so much and rarely accomplish it, often having days of asking yourself “why?????”. I stopped beating myself up about it quite some time ago and just let things happen. Today, as normal as it may seem for healthy brain people, is a SUPER accomplishment for me being able to follow the process of setting out and accomplishing the things I wanted to do. ( insert pat on back here)

Packing and all the things that go with it is a hard thing at this time in my life. Trimming down my possessions is even harder. I am trying to keep in mind it will be best. you know, for later. What is wonderful, is finding all the memories. I have an old sea chest, I bought it years ago at an auction house. My daughter says it was the one thing she always remembers having as she grew up, im putting all my memories in there for her.

Next……

Just a note. I had to re-read this and my last blog post like 5 times. I missed words. It took me by surprise.

Usually, well, since I started writing these posts, I have just re-read it once, no issue, no errors. Hmmmmm, 30 days not writing a blog and this is the new me? Change happens rather quickly these days.

Today and my last post, I just kept finding all these missing words. Words I thought I had written, TYPED> feeling a bit uneasy about that. I re-read my first few paragraphs in this entry and found I just completely left out words. Its so weird. As I told you before, my daughter says my conversations are sometimes only in my head, I start in the middle of a thought, completely unrelated to what we are talking about. Maybe its connected. Also, words …..when i look at some of them, they look odd. Like they are not spelt right but they are through spellcheck. So weird. Temporal Lobe issues, they are growing.

Anyway, if I miss something, just try to imaging, figure out, how the sentence should go, what I was trying to say i guess. Oppps! in advance. LOL

Segue…..

so for today, I am successfully doing what I should be doing. NOt all days are like that. But I endure, as most of us do. My only dilemma…… why did I stop packing to write this. Hahahahah!

Stay well my friends! xo Jan

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